Risk #3 - Be a nerd.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :)

Yesterdays risk went well! I didn't go out, I saved money, I got to see the X factor (Cher Lloyd made me cry, she was outstanding), the world did not end, people are still talking to me, and I have no boy drama or hangover! (although I did miss out on a great night, even if half of my friends got kicked out for being underage.)

I have one risk in mind that I am really excited about, except it can't happen for a while, but it will happen, I promise you! It will be the risk that makes or brakes me, and my stomach is churning just thinking about it! But now, risk 3.

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Yesterday I defined Risks as simply challenges. So now I am going to take a challenge, one that will take much longer than a day to perfect, but one I have always wanted to perfect. BE A NERD.

Here are the reasons why I like Facebook: 
1:It's an easy way to talk to guys that you don't want to talk to face to face.
2:It's good for funny photo's after a night out.
3:It's good for discussing X factor and things that happened at school.
4:Nothing can cheer me up more than a wall post from someone I really like :)
5:A lot of people like me because of the funny things I say and post.
6:I can make a lot of sick jokes on it, which amuse a lot of people.
7:You can ask people about homework.


Here is what is wrong with all of these reasons:
1:You cannot form serious relationships with people you do not talk to face to face.
2:Most of those photo's are embarrassing, and end up being un-tagged and forgotten about the next day.
3:X factor can be discussed at school, so can school related things.
4:That is really pathetic.
5:That is also pathetic. People should like me because of who I am in person. Not because of who I am on Facebook.
6:These sick jokes I make (about my best friends brother and Larry Murphy, generally) are sick. And I think many people are scared of me and think I belong in a mental hospital.
7:What is a mobile phone for?


I am the girl who is always on facebook, all the time, and it's not even my choice anymore, I go on it because people expect me to be online. Because it is SO EASY to log on and waste my whole evening on Facebook, instead of doing something worthwhile. I'm sick of being lazy. I'm sick of getting D's when I could get A's. I'm sick of not doing homework and talking about it on Facebook.  I want to delete my account, but would that be too drastic, too much of a risk? It's on my list of possible risks (which is way too short of a list). Maybe I'll do it another day (if I get better at risk taking).
My risk for today involves me making a change, and making a PROMISE.
I promise to never go on Facebook in the evenings after school, instead I will do my homework and practice the piano like I should. I am now a nerd. I am going to study my ass off, because I know I can get A's if I study, but I never do study. So it's kinda scary getting A's, because I'm so used to C's (and the occasional A or B in History, because I watch documentaries on what we're doing and make up stories about what's happening. I also like to pretend I am Martin Luther King or Mussolini, etc.) If I can get an A in history why can't I get A's in EVERYTHING else? I can! (Ok, well maybe not maths, I am honestly mathematically challenged.)
That picture has a strong meaning. The "be a nerd" sign is blocking Facebook. Because I am now a nerd, and not a Facebook-obsessed freak!
So I am off now, to study, and to remove Facebook from my most visited sites!
Does anyone know anyway to make it very difficult to get onto Facebook, but still possible, just in case. ?
Also, I would love your ideas for now risks to take, because mine kinda suck. But back to school on Tuesday, so maybe I'll think of more when I get to leave the house! :) I'll probably think of more when I'm doing things other than sitting on Facebook!

Have a good Halloween, do stupid things :)

Méabh xxx

Risk #2 - Staying in.

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What is a risk? 

Oxford Dictionary describes a risk as "a situation involving exposure to danger:"

and

"the possibility that something unpleasant or unwelcome will happen:".

This is not what a risk should be! I searched the internet for a while, to try and find a definition of the word risk which would fit in with my little adventure this month. My research proved futile, I could find nothing which described how I view risks. So I will try to explain to you myself what I think of when I hear the word risk. Challenge. Risks are just challenges. This blog is a challenge, I've worked hard on it so far, and I'm going to have to work even harder to get some followers, and even harder to think of a risk to take every day for the next month! (A little help with that would be appreciated!)  Risks involve stepping outside of your comfort zone, and doing things you wouldn't usually do. Yesterday I emailed this girl called Charlotte who has a wonderful blog, you should check it out  here now , (right now I have no followers, so I'm pretty much talking to myself here. Woo woo.) Now I don't usually go emailing strangers asking them for advice, but I decided to take that risk and Charlotte replied to my email, her reply was so lovely and helpful, it really made my smile :) I had one of those moments where I realised that there are so many nice people in this world, and so that cheered me up after I had this awful fight with my mother. :) So there was a positive side to my risks. :)
My point is this; risks are not negative. At least not in my experience. I'm sure one of the 31 risks I plan on taking will be negative, but I'm thinking most will be positive. Because risks bring out the best in us. And as my risks get bigger, I will hopefully become a bigger person.


So todays risk may seem a bit hypocritical at first. I'm not going out tonight. Usually I go out every weekend, or every second weekend. I've been out 3 times in the last 2 weeks, and its eating up all of my money. I REALLY want a professional camera. That is never going to happen when I'm spending 50 euro on each night out (yes, it is always that much when you consider drink, clothes, make-up, etc.). I never get anything out of these nights except BOY DRAMA and a hangover, so, c'est la point ? I know it's fun, and don't get me wrong, I love the alcohol, but I become a different person when I'm drunk. (A slut, to be to the point). So tonight, according to the feedback on my Facebook status, EVERYONE (minus three people)  is going out for Halloween.....and I am staying in. It's almost a death sentence. It is so far outside my comfort zone it unsettles me. Tonight I am going to watch the X Factor and work on my blogs and eat pizza (which will probably less calories than all the alcohol I would have consumed on a night out!). 
I REALLY WANT TO GO OUT.
Everyones Facebook statuses are driving me crazy, I've gotten 4 wall posts and goodness knows how many chat messages telling me to go out!!!! And I stayed up until 3am last night (couldn't sleep. Watched the human centipede. Bad idea) talking to a certain someone who really wants me to go out..... But that would create BOY DRAMA, and boy drama is okay during the summer, but I just have better things to do during the school year.
So I am not going out. It is killing me. I feel uncomfortable. But I am doing it. Hopefully it will be worth it. My liver, my dignity and my camera's memory card will thank me someday :) 




P.S.THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!! Have you got any risks you want me to take? I would love to get your opinions, I'm pretty much open to anything (I'll regret saying that but I'll take the risk!) . 


I LOVE YOU ALL,
Méabh xxxx

Risk #1 - Creating This Blog

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Hi,
My name is Méabh and I would just like to welcome you to my blog. First, a bit about myself : I am 17, Irish, last year in school, bored. Why am I bored? Because I do not take risks. I'm that annoying girl who has a really good question in her head in class but won't ask it. I'm that girl who you think is shy until they read the conversations she has with her friends on Facebook and suddenly you realize that she is quite witty and out there. I'm that girl who wants to be a writer but is too scared to hand up 50% of her English homework for fear of failure. I'm a girl who has a diploma on the accordion but is too scared to play for visitors, even if they are friends. I'm a girl who desperately wants to learn how to sing but won't, out of fear. I'm a girl who is being very honest with herself right now, I'm a girl who is going to change.

I started this blog because I am going to begin to take risks, everyday for a month. Small or big, deep or shallow. I promise, right here, right now, to take a risk every single day for the next month. I am going to live through the unsettling uncertainty of risk taking, and maybe find out who I am destined to be. I am a believer, a dreamer and an individual. As of today I am adding adventure seeker to that list of descriptions. This blog is going to chronicle my many adventures this month as I attempt to shatter some fears and rise above myself. What are fears anyway? Fears are just thoughts, they don't even exist.

So, my risk for today is to start this blog. It's a risk, it may not be too scary, but I have to start somewhere!

Thank you for reading,

A Demain,
Méabh.
29/10/2010