Risk #2 - Staying in.

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What is a risk? 

Oxford Dictionary describes a risk as "a situation involving exposure to danger:"

and

"the possibility that something unpleasant or unwelcome will happen:".

This is not what a risk should be! I searched the internet for a while, to try and find a definition of the word risk which would fit in with my little adventure this month. My research proved futile, I could find nothing which described how I view risks. So I will try to explain to you myself what I think of when I hear the word risk. Challenge. Risks are just challenges. This blog is a challenge, I've worked hard on it so far, and I'm going to have to work even harder to get some followers, and even harder to think of a risk to take every day for the next month! (A little help with that would be appreciated!)  Risks involve stepping outside of your comfort zone, and doing things you wouldn't usually do. Yesterday I emailed this girl called Charlotte who has a wonderful blog, you should check it out  here now , (right now I have no followers, so I'm pretty much talking to myself here. Woo woo.) Now I don't usually go emailing strangers asking them for advice, but I decided to take that risk and Charlotte replied to my email, her reply was so lovely and helpful, it really made my smile :) I had one of those moments where I realised that there are so many nice people in this world, and so that cheered me up after I had this awful fight with my mother. :) So there was a positive side to my risks. :)
My point is this; risks are not negative. At least not in my experience. I'm sure one of the 31 risks I plan on taking will be negative, but I'm thinking most will be positive. Because risks bring out the best in us. And as my risks get bigger, I will hopefully become a bigger person.


So todays risk may seem a bit hypocritical at first. I'm not going out tonight. Usually I go out every weekend, or every second weekend. I've been out 3 times in the last 2 weeks, and its eating up all of my money. I REALLY want a professional camera. That is never going to happen when I'm spending 50 euro on each night out (yes, it is always that much when you consider drink, clothes, make-up, etc.). I never get anything out of these nights except BOY DRAMA and a hangover, so, c'est la point ? I know it's fun, and don't get me wrong, I love the alcohol, but I become a different person when I'm drunk. (A slut, to be to the point). So tonight, according to the feedback on my Facebook status, EVERYONE (minus three people)  is going out for Halloween.....and I am staying in. It's almost a death sentence. It is so far outside my comfort zone it unsettles me. Tonight I am going to watch the X Factor and work on my blogs and eat pizza (which will probably less calories than all the alcohol I would have consumed on a night out!). 
I REALLY WANT TO GO OUT.
Everyones Facebook statuses are driving me crazy, I've gotten 4 wall posts and goodness knows how many chat messages telling me to go out!!!! And I stayed up until 3am last night (couldn't sleep. Watched the human centipede. Bad idea) talking to a certain someone who really wants me to go out..... But that would create BOY DRAMA, and boy drama is okay during the summer, but I just have better things to do during the school year.
So I am not going out. It is killing me. I feel uncomfortable. But I am doing it. Hopefully it will be worth it. My liver, my dignity and my camera's memory card will thank me someday :) 




P.S.THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!! Have you got any risks you want me to take? I would love to get your opinions, I'm pretty much open to anything (I'll regret saying that but I'll take the risk!) . 


I LOVE YOU ALL,
Méabh xxxx